I feel like the Lord is guiding me while I write tonight. If you’re not religious it’s fine, I go into more detail about that further on in this post. So, please just give it a chance.
Suicide rates are growing everyday, something needs to change, and it needs to start changing now. I started this blog so I could have a way to discuss the issues that I deal with on a daily basis. My prayers are that this “project” will reach those who silently suffer because they are so afraid of what might happen if they open their closet and free all the skeletons that have been crammed in there time after time, year after year. I am willing to be completely open and honest about myself, and I pray that by doing this, somehow I will get the opportunity to help others.
I know that all things happen in the Lord’s time, not mine. I have one follower, my sweet heart daughter, Jillian. I think she started following me just to make me feel better, lol. My hopes are that people do read my posts, and they may want to reply, but fear placing themselves in a vulnerable state. If that’s the case, then I would like to reassure readers that this is a safe place. This is so hard for me to do, but if I don’t share my story, than I will lose out on the incredible opportunity to not only find healing for myself; but I would also be taking away an opportunity for others to find their chance for growth, positive change, happiness, healing and wellness.
The worst part about telling your story is that you may feel like people are going to judge you without even taking the time to get to know you, that’s not going to happen here. I have to allow for comments to be shared on my blog, I would never give a bully access to this page. This is my safe space where I come to let everything out, I can’t keep these things inside anymore, I’m only hurting myself if I do. So, here I am at 2:16 am because I’m manic and can’t sleep. How many people out there know what I am talking about and going through? If you get it, I feel for you, big-time. On a positive note, it might give you a chance to come across this blog and come to find it interesting, and something you may want to be a part of. That would be awesome!
We have to find the strength to help others by sharing our stories. I can talk all day long, but I would love to see others telling their stories, and you only need to discuss what you feel comfortable with. So, let’s look at the reality of the situation… we are losing so many people to suicide; from our nations veterans, the homeless, our own children, family members and friends, to people who we’ve never even met. This epidemic happens every single day. I want to address this tonight.
Like I told my daughter, I don’t need followers. My hope is that people read the posts, and find that even if they aren’t affected personally with the topics I’m posting, they may know someone that can relate to this- which will hopefully result in the kind Samaritan, family member, and/or friends to tell their loved ones about this blog, and explain how they may benefit from this. If I can reach at least one person, one person out of the millions, I would never take that blessing for granted.
I know I can’t save people, but I pray that I can somehow, whether it be through a post or a conversation, be a guide for the ones who might be too afraid to seek help. It’s 2017, with all the craziness in this world that is acceptable, why feel fear when thinking about letting someone in. Your life may be in turmoil, but if you want to get help, I will help you as much as I possibly can. I would love to speak with you about what issues you’re facing, and I would be honored to research doctors and clinics in your area that treat the specific issues you’re facing.
(sidenote to clarify what I mentioned earlier- I am a Christian, I do attend church regularly, and I do have faith in my Lord. Here’s the thing, I’m not going to push my religious beliefs onto anyone, that’s unfair and would completely destroy what I stand for, as well as destroying the reasoning behind why I started this blog. Religion is not something that we have to agree upon. If you don’t practice religion, I’m still going to be there for you, no matter what. I want you to know that I am not only open about my health issues, I’m open about my beliefs also. I actually find that prayers are a very important part of my personal healing. So, if you want you can ignore my openness about my beliefs, on the flip side, if you’re curious about my beliefs, I would be more than happy to talk with you more about it). My prayers and hopes tonight are that this blog in some way, overtime, helps at least one person. When that one person is able to reach down deep, and find the strength to pursue the help they need, they will find themselves feeling empowered and capable to utilize knowledge and experience during the healing process. This in turn will help to strengthen the mind and body, resulting in positive changes in their life.
I’m going to finish up for tonight, I didn’t expect to have a post this in depth and so far from where I was going to take it. For the believers out there, this was a divine intervention of drastic proportions, lol! Good night all!!